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Started Jillian Michael's 30-day Shred program today and damn was it hard as heck! (Umm, yes, I did just say heck).  So, I'm totally excited and looking forward to my new and fabulous me I'll see by March.

The fam decided to do The Biggest Loser with the winner at the end of March getting a new wardrobe paid for courtesy of the rest of the fam.  You KNOW I have to win some free clothes!!  Wishe me luck peoples!

omg....I'm supposed to be signing my lease papers tomorrow for my very first Manhattan apartment!  I am uber-excited!  As soon as I sign the papers you KNOW I'm posting a picture of me holding the keys in my hand! I worked VERY hard and saved a lot to make sure I could move by Feb 1st, which was my internal deadline I gave myself back in November.  I'm excited to have a short walk to work (the perk of living in Battery Park) and being on my own as a single, independent woman. 

This is starting off to be an amazing year!  Just have to keep that momentum going.  As soon as I move, the next step will be signing up for the LSAT prep class, since I'll be taking my LSATs in June!  This is totally my year!  I feel it and even when I don't feel it, I'll just remind myself that this and every year to come is SO my year!!

I started this year off awesome, except for the few blog posts below.  And, when reading this "controversial" post that offended someone, I realized, I said nothing hurtful, nor was any of it things I hadn't already directly communicated to the individual.  All of my posts are truth and that was the most truthful post of them all.  I basically put all my honest feelings right there and for someone to tell me they were offended by me saying they were a great guy and could have been a great friend is off.  As such, I am reinstating my previous post. 

The truth and whole truth for me regarding that situation can be summed up to be: I really cared for a guy who didn't share my sentiments, so it's not fair for me to settle for a friendship when I want more.  It's all or nothing with me, that's what I deserve. 

Some things are meant to be compromised, but when it comes to my heart, there are no compromises.

Listened to Kanye speak some TRUTH with that new album, 808s & Heartbreak!  I mean, for lack of a better phrase, that was some real talk.  This dude is really on another level.  Pinocchio's Story had me teary-eyed on the train, it just sounded so real.  You could feel the truth in his words when he was singing that song.

Of course, my all time favorite right now is Heartless.  I mean, that right there hits straight home.  I just wish it was longer.  3 minutes and 31 seconds is not enough for that song, it's on constant repeat!  Of course, I'm not the heartless one :-) But, I mean EVERYONE can relate to this!

Best part of the song right here with THE most truth:
"You run and tell your friends that you leaving me
They say that they don't know what you see in me
You wait a few months and you will see
You'll never find nobody better than me"

Of course I MUST post the video...or not.  Apparently no Kanye vid from YouTube can be embedded so...damn, you all know what song I was referring to!

Don't settle.  Wait for what you want.

The bottom line was and is I can't separate the two. If I start off with a certain level of attraction to you, I can't flip a switch & make us platonic friends. It's impossible. So maybe this weird third party conversation we had was for the best because I can't settle for less than I deserve and most importantly, I won't.

Now I MUST end on a funny note, and the first song that came into my head right now was New Edition's "Is This The End" LOL! I am hearing the line where Bobby hits the note and holds it: Is this the ennnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnd? LOL 

I can see taking offense if I was calling out governments but no names were mentioned and as far as I know only TWO people not including myself know who I'm talking about, one of those people is the person this post refers to and the other is a close friend.  If anyone else knows, it wasn't me that put the situation on blast, so be mad at yourself for telling. :-D  However, I apologize PUBLICLY as you have taken offense and as such will mark the previous post private.  It's the proper thing to do. 

Oh, this goes into the sea of forgetfulness after 1:30AM EST.

Addendum: what's striking is your reaction is exactly what you would have chided me for

And the verdict is...I didn't even have to make the decision, it was made for me, which was a LOT easier for me!  I think I'm too nice sometimes and I don't want people to not like me, I have this issue with pleasing everyone and forgetting to take care of my star player first.

Well, everything happens for a reason.  Maybe at another time the verdict will change but for now, the jury is and there have been no appeals made. ;-)

On that note, back to watching Katt with Oscar.  He just finished the poor little tink tink kicking sparks segment, LMBO!

It's a new year, time to turn over a new leaf. I've always been the one to ALWAYS speak my mind, so I'm going to give everyone a word of advice for the New Year:

Start being direct with people. Open up that line of communication and let people know your true thoughts, feelings and opinions. It's better to be straightforward so you don't have to waste your time with the BS. Life is too short to be timid & tip-toeing around the issues. Not ONE person who is runnin isht EVER holds back & not speak their mind. You think Oprah running Harpo, Inc and not letting people know how she REALLY feel?  It's a quality of a good leader. So in 2009, just let it go, (in a respectful way of course, I'm still a lady not advocating berating people) and start saying what you really think. You never know what the response will be and it may be better than you thought.

Like I always say, the worst you can say is "no" so why not ask? I'm not going to die a day early or some BS. Forget about what everyone else thinks, there's only 2 people you really have to please in your life and that's God and yourself. As long as those 2 people are cool with you, you're good.

Now, don't say I never told you nothing of serious importance. You better bookmark this post!

Signed,
I tell it how it is and you tell it how it might be.

Again, in the infamous words of Chris Rock: "And I'm out this bish"

So I figured I should post something on here welcoming in the New Year, but I'm too lazy to say something awe inspiring and amazing so...I'll just say this:

It may be a New Year but I'm still me.  I have a few things in the works that will help me realize my lifelong dream of taking over the world and running a Fortune 500 company ala K.I.C.  Maybe you'll be lucky enough for me to bring you along for the ride and maybe you won't, because 2009 is only the tip of the iceberg for the greatness that will be my life.  2008 was great but 2009 will be sublime (yeah, kinda sucked but you get my drift, lol)  Remember to treat your Star Player right!  I'm trying to get to 48 haters by the end of 2009. 

As Chris Rock says, "And I'm out this bish"

Stay tuned peoples...

Decided to watch Katt's new stand-up and it was freakin hilarious!  So, here are my fave quotes from Katt...

No, I didn't say 9:010

White people just letting the driver be lost for miles and miles and won't say isht!

Can we be single as a country for a while and date a president for a couple of months?

On Hillary: We don't know you like that, we like your husband.  You wasn't on the invitation, it said Bill Clinton plus 1, we ain't know who you was bringing.  If you can't handle your man how you gon handle the world.

White people haven't you had all the presidents? Go get a history book, white, white, white, white...let us have one!

On Barack Obama: No baby-mama come out the wood work, don't owe nobody $200, no tattoos, never had a pitbull puppy, where did you get this ni**a? out a cave?

On Michelle Obama: if you walk up on Michelle she smell like Motions and Cocoa Butter, that's a real ni**a right there.

On McCain: He can't be president because he's 111! "What is your last name? I may have owned your grandfather?" STHU!!!

Feed your baby that retarded clone beef and you going to wonder why she's 4 yrs old and 600 pounds with a horn coming out her head singing her alphabets, "A, B, C, D, moo-ooo"

On being short: I knew you wwasn't going to let me look like a seventh grader for the rest of my life.

Poor little "tink-tink"